she wants to name
so no matter where they are
they'll still share one
By ZeroSometimes she thinks about math.
She wonders if there's an equation for her depression.
The number of times you cut yourself today squared,
minus the unhealed wounds from the day before
by the number of days this week you felt pretty.
The total meals you threw up in the last month
multiplied by the pounds you didn't starve off
by the number of times you told the truth about it.
The mean of the slurs hurled at you by strangers
and the ones flung by friends
by the number of people you know who love you.
She was never good at math.
She forgets you can't divide by zero.
the pills don't workA few weeks ago
my doctor called me
"You have a
with the tendencies of an insomniacthe loneliest part of her day
is going to sleep
knowing when she wakes up
she'll still be
She called me Ma'am. He called me Miss.The bank called today, trying to sell you life insurance. You let them babble because it's their job and you couldn't get a word in edgewise and you're too polite to simply hang up. When the woman on the other line finishes her spiel you tell her you're not interested, but she insists so you listen. Letting her speak for another minute couldn't hurt, right?
She starts telling you how you should be prepared in the case of a sudden death. Car crashes, drowning, equipment malfunction, cancer, disease contracted overseas, covered. You aren't going to buy this insurance but you want to ask if suicide was covered under it anyway.
But you weren't planning on dying. Not today, anyway. Not for a while. You stopped that.
She transfers you to another associate. You tell him he's wasting his time, because you simply aren't interested and don't have the need for this program.
He lists off some statistics. The number of people who die in accidents every year. What the average funeral costs in Canada
it was cold when I woke upI long to trace invisible trails
across your face, like wind
I yearn to feel your heartbeat
cuddled up against your chest
I crave all of your kisses
I ache to give you mine
Wishing upon a falling star
I'll sing you lullabies
Ninety-EightI want you here on my darkest nights
when razor blades can't scare the frights
and scars aren't enough to face my fears
haunting, taunting all of these years
I want you here on my brightest days
when sun shines dim under my rays
and our laughter comes in fits and starts
prancing, dancing never apart
I want you here for everything
The good and bad, the in between
You're HomeThe only place I know I'm safe
Is someplace I may never be
If home is where the heart is
I'm still living overseas
Red PenShe has a red pen, holds it close
Reminded of a boy
She plays with it but not his heart
A heart is not a toy
Sometimes she writes and stops herself
Afraid, for ink runs dry
Superstitious mind, she reasons
Red pens, like love, can die
She saves the pen, saving the ink
Never once she forgets
By losing it she loses him
Her heart is in his debt
I can imagine:
The sun dying in the horizon;
The red sky... beautiful!
Making to go mad of happiness;
And the moon appearing.
The birds in the trees;
The last song of the day;
As if it was an orchestra
In magisterial symphony.
Then, the silence;
It seems the world;
Is all asleep.
The night atmosphere
It is weighed;
Different from the of the day.
Peeping of an owl
Makes to tremble.
I feel horror
I foresee with fright
What can happen.
The moon hides
For one moment
A dark and gray veil
It gets on all off the things.
They say that the night is beautiful;
But I am alone;
I fear to see ghosts
and macabre appearances.
I am really afraid;
A stranger noise I heard.
I am ready to run of there
when a hand I hold
and I hear your voice
murmuring with tenderness:
"BE NOT AFRAID, I AM HERE... "
i don't want to hear you apologise anymorei wish the photos
i keep could talk to me,
like some damned harry
potter trick, just so i
could hear you say
you love me without
your voice breaking,
without hearing the
'but...' that never
made it past your lips
but lodged itself in
my throat anyway.
i just want to
hear you say it like
you mean it.
Sickly SweetSure darkness bleeding through that smile,
What plague has flecked my vein?
Affliction smirking to beguile,
A curse to entertain!
No contest dear my mind is sure,
Your gorgeous grin respite,
Haunted not my dreams endure,
No thoughts of you tonight.
Sickly sweet it radiates,
That laugh it screams adore,
Admitting this relentless fate,
… I couldn’t want you more.
The embraceThe sun's grip was tight
Seeking to bind her will
Ripping sighs of delight
Her fiery lust to fulfill
The moon's surrender was complete
So alluring the sinful bliss
To get the intense sun at her feet
And deny it was amiss
For he was the sun, mighty and powerful
Dangerous and intense
To the moon and her dance.
Kissing Under The Fireworks
As I lowered her through the woods, puling her hand gently and with care
I also hurried, worried as well.
She was wearing a kimono, so it was taking longer then I thought.
Will we make it, Will we make it. The thought echoed inside.
and finally we saw the dark blue sea, in a middle of a quiet beach.
We were almost there.
"Come on, Come on" I said to her.
We climbed up a large bolder sitting near the shore. The perfect spot.
Just then far in the dark sea, lights suddenly appeared.
Shooting straight up into the air.
Then exploded into a million sparks with rainbow colors.
Here and there the fire works exploded millions and millions of sparks.
Making a marvelous display into the night sky.
The Girl next to me had her breath taken,mesmerized at the sight.
I was too...but not at the fireworks.
My gaze was at else where; her face.
Seeing her happy face was what I came to see, it was better then any fireworks display.
She put her hand on mine.
To BehnazTo recap:
Though the obstacles abound,
In you my heart's been found.
Though we stand on distant ground,
I will sail the oceans 'round.
Though I've lived a troubled lot,
I'm assured that you care not.
And these battles that I've fought,
Naught for not, I've not forgot.
And I'd like to, to be fair;
But I'm bound to virtuous fare.
This consummate affair,
Should not cap or coax a care.
Though I've clumsily misstepped,
And shown you pain I've kept.
This gene in me expressed,
Though the genius must be stressed,
As the green° in us fares best,
While the night provides just rest.
So it's true I'm sure you've heard,
Of this dark and somber word.
But now darkened skies have cleared,
These trials, pray they've veered.
Older now I've grown,
To reap what I have sown.
What a toil it was to hone,
Like the blood drained from a stone°.
The price I paid for "talent",
More ephemeral than gallant.
A wayward train of thought,
When the dreamcatcher works not.
A stricken science taught,
eternal endSteps grow less brisk,
Mind thinks less clearly,
Vision fades away,
Heart loves none so dearly.
Minutes mute my soul,
Long I'll love the one I had, nearly.
autumn breathA gentle waft of the early Autumn dawn washes over the bedsheets,
two bodies breathing one another in and out as they lie asleep,
limbs entwined and held tight with faint light cast over radiant skin.
White dress on the floor, grey suit tossed leisurely to the side,
silence of the joining of two ringing deafeningly through the room.
Sleepy smiles exchanged, tender kisses shared with a loving laugh,
the glint of soft metal around a feminine finger, warms the company of two.
Save MeSave Me
Hold me in your arms, don’t let go,
Squeeze me tight enough to let it show
How much you need me and want me.
Trap me in your paradise, eternally.
I feel the cold world, burned by ice,
And your warm love feels oh so nice.
Growing steadily unstable, I need you more,
You’re all that keeps me grounded at my core.
Smother me in your sweet embrace,
With your kiss, take the breath from my face.
Drown in my tears as my heart learns to tick,
Nurse me back to health, my brain is sick.
Take a moment to show me how much you care,
Revitalize the way I breathe in the air,
Teach me how to feel more than numbness again,
Heal the blemishes not visible on my skin.
You are the essence of my vitality,
Without you, I’d suffer a tragic fatality.
You are my passion, my hopes and my dreams,
You are what quiets my troubled screams.
Please, wrap me in an infinite hug, I implore,
I’ve fought too hard, I’m exhausted on the floor.
I can’t fight any more, I’m torn a