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By ZeroSometimes she thinks about math.
She wonders if there's an equation for her depression.
The number of times you cut yourself today squared,
minus the unhealed wounds from the day before
by the number of days this week you felt pretty.
The total meals you threw up in the last month
multiplied by the pounds you didn't starve off
by the number of times you told the truth about it.
The mean of the slurs hurled at you by strangers
and the ones flung by friends
by the number of people you know who love you.
She was never good at math.
She forgets you can't divide by zero.
the pills don't workA few weeks ago
my doctor called me
"You have a
with the tendencies of an insomniacthe loneliest part of her day
is going to sleep
knowing when she wakes up
she'll still be
She called me Ma'am. He called me Miss.The bank called today, trying to sell you life insurance. You let them babble because it's their job and you couldn't get a word in edgewise and you're too polite to simply hang up. When the woman on the other line finishes her spiel you tell her you're not interested, but she insists so you listen. Letting her speak for another minute couldn't hurt, right?
She starts telling you how you should be prepared in the case of a sudden death. Car crashes, drowning, equipment malfunction, cancer, disease contracted overseas, covered. You aren't going to buy this insurance but you want to ask if suicide was covered under it anyway.
But you weren't planning on dying. Not today, anyway. Not for a while. You stopped that.
She transfers you to another associate. You tell him he's wasting his time, because you simply aren't interested and don't have the need for this program.
He lists off some statistics. The number of people who die in accidents every year. What the average funeral costs in Canada
it was cold when I woke upI long to trace invisible trails
across your face, like wind
I yearn to feel your heartbeat
cuddled up against your chest
I crave all of your kisses
I ache to give you mine
Wishing upon a falling star
I'll sing you lullabies
Ninety-EightI want you here on my darkest nights
when razor blades can't scare the frights
and scars aren't enough to face my fears
haunting, taunting all of these years
I want you here on my brightest days
when sun shines dim under my rays
and our laughter comes in fits and starts
prancing, dancing never apart
I want you here for everything
The good and bad, the in between
You're HomeThe only place I know I'm safe
Is someplace I may never be
If home is where the heart is
I'm still living overseas
Red PenShe has a red pen, holds it close
Reminded of a boy
She plays with it but not his heart
A heart is not a toy
Sometimes she writes and stops herself
Afraid, for ink runs dry
Superstitious mind, she reasons
Red pens, like love, can die
She saves the pen, saving the ink
Never once she forgets
By losing it she loses him
Her heart is in his debt
four.you told me you loved me today
- - - - - - - -
- - - - - -
so i admitted that
you make want me
Two Makes Three (Tord X Matt) (MPreg) 2
Sixth months later, Matt's belly got bigger. Matt didnt want to come out his room. Edd knocked, "Matt!"
"GO AWAY! IM FAT!" the ginger cried. "you're not, fat. You're preganet." Tom told him, suddenly the door knocked. Edd opened it and sigh, "thank god its you" he said, "matt! We have someone here to see you!"
Matt slowly, got out of his room. He gasped when he saw that person. Tord. He exitedly hugged him, "TORD! IM SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU!" he cried, Tord smiled, "uh.. yeah." Matt back up and Tord saw his belly. "wow" he said, "you're big." Matt blushed, "yeah" Edd smiled, "we already told Tord abot your pregnacy."
Matt's smile faded, "how do you feel about that?" he asked. Tord smiled, "Matt, when it comes to you Im never mad" he came over and kissed Matt gently. "aww" Edd said, Tom just made a 'thats gross' face. Tord put his hands on his belly, "so... im a dad. Wonderful."
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Two Makes Three (Tord X Matt) (MPreg)So... this is for fun, if you want me to continue just put yes. Thank you.
After finding their way home from the ocean to find their keys, Matt flopped on his bed. He sighed. Tord's gone he told himself, how can i go on? Sure we broke up before he left, but.... Matt trailed off his thoughts. He heard his belly growl, He huffed and stayed in his bed.
Minutes later, the ginger begin to feel sick. He looked in his mirror and saw he was pale. Am i sick? "Dinner!" Edd called out. When his friends saw him they became worried. "wow, Matt. " Tom said, "you look-" "are you feeling okay?" Edd cuting him off. Matt touched his forehead feeling he was burning up, "i think i got sea sick?" He said. "I could SEE that" Edd smiled. Tom gave him a look, "anyways" Edd said, "do you want to eat?"
Matt looked at the meal Edd cooked. Fish and Chips. "Of course!" Matt said, "i am very hungry!"- Then everything went black.
"uhhhhhh" Matt moaned as he awaken. He saw a certain aside of
Love Hurts (Matt X Tord) pt. 5
"where are we going?" Matt asked, Tord smiled, "you'll see." He then handed Matt a gun. "w- whats this for?"
"just bring it along."
Matt shruged and followed.
Matt and Tord went downtown where it was night and glommy. Tord and Matt hid behind a wall, that was next to a liquor store. "what are we doing?" Matt asked. Tord kissed him, "dont be scared, just follow my lead" The two both put on a mask. and went in.
"DRIVE! DRIVE!" Matt screamed. Tord did, the two went back to their camping area. Tord laughed as he landed the bed, "Matt that was so fun!" Matt didnt smile, "WE ALMOST GOT KILLED!" Tord chuckled. Matt eyes begin to flood with tears "ITS NOT FUNNY, TORD!" he cried. Tord stopped and walked over to Matt, "but we didn't." Matt sniffed, "thats not helping."
Tord hugged Matt on the back, "i- im sorry, Matt. I thought we could've tried something new." Matt still sobbed, "please stop crying" Tord tolled him. "i- i cant" Matt sniffed, "cause i do
Love Hurts (Matt X Tord) pt 2 During their break in school, Edd raced to his friends. "Hey guys!" he told them, Matt smiled, "Edd!" i need to tell you something!" "what about us?" Tom asked. Matt thought "Edd will tell you guys later" he told them, then took edd behind a tree.
"what is it?" Edd asked, Matt smiled, "i think im in love!" he said but not too loud. "Really?" Edd said, "with who?" Matt bit his lip, "uh... well we ment last night, i was getting mugged-"
"WHAT?!" Edd cut him off, Matt sighed, "then he saved my life, i dont know his name, buuuut, i feel in love with him" Edd facepalm then looked at his friend, "its not love when you dont know his name and saves your life. Its called being a friend" Matt scoffed, "it is so called love, it was love, Edd. Love!" Edd sighed, "eh, okay?"
The two came back, Paul and Tom were talking about girls, Edd decided to join in. Matt felt weird but stayed with his friends. "psst" a voice said. Matt looked around. There at the gate benches was a hand tell
Love Hurts (Matt X Tord) pt. 1 Matt is a ginger. A 14 year old ginger. That has a secret. A secret that he hasn't told any of his friends. Not Tom, Paul, or Edd. But today was the day when he was going to give it up.
Tom sighed as he sat down next to his friends, Matt gulped as he saw his friends sitting down waiting for him. He finally sighed, "alright" he said jittery, "i- i dont want any of you to get mad. O- or hate me. But i need to tell you something that i hid from you three for a very long time." Matt took a deep breath and finally spit it out, "i- im gay." The three of his friends all looked at each other, jaw opened, confussed, or with an 'what the hell?' look. Edd coughed and stood up, "uh.... we dont hate you, Matt o- or mad. We're just shooked."
Tom sighed, "at least he said it to us, before we found out our selves" Edd nodded. Paul rubbed the back of his neck, "i- its fine with me" he smiled. Matt did the biggest smile ever "THANKYOUSOMUCHGUYS!ILOVEYOUALL!" Matt saw their faces of what he s
AskingThey all ask for you after the end.
But somehow we have a beginning.
This was a complete accident.
It wasn't supposed to be like this.
I was supposed to be like them,
Asking for you.
I don't want that anymore.
But now you're asking for me.
And I'm terrified.
Four EW fanfiction pt. 1
As usaual Edd and his three friends sat on their one couch watching TV. "Hey everyone!" Matt said, "remember how we all meet?" The three thought for a moment. "i do" Tord said smiling. "Me too" Edd said, Tom shruged, "same." Matt smiled, "if only we could go back in time-" Suddenly a portal out of no where and out came their future selfs.
"we are you from the year 20-" Future Matt got cut off by Future Tom landing where they were at. "anyways" he continued, "one of you have to come with us to save our future."
The four looked at each, "whyyyyyy?" they asked at the same time. Future Edd cut in, "because it ruins your friendship, Tord leaves, Tom's gets boring, Matt gets vainer, and Edd. You die."
Edd was about to gasp, until, "wait, if i die, how come your alive?" Future Edd stopped, "uh... cause... Thats not important!"
"so.... where do we go back in time?" Tom asked. Future Tord said, "well if you listen for once, you would know" Tord smiled, "we g
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